When I started blogging two months ago, I wondered if I’d have any followers. Would it feel like I was talking to myself? But- I see at least a few of you are reading along and sharing your thoughts which is so fun! If you have commented, make sure to check back on that posting to find any replies I may post.
It’s been a week since I wrote about my recent challenge reading Bittersweet. For the first few days I drew a complete blank any time I thought about what I could not do. There are so many things that I do on a daily/weekly basis that are non-negotiable (unless I’m asking for a visit from social services). I have a baby and a toddler! Enough said. One night while Ryan and I were talking in bed I asked for his honest opinion. Were there things I just wasn’t thinking of? He lovingly told me he believes I have a mental struggle with believing I must do it all. It’s true. Deep down I believe that I should be able to maintain everything. I was raised to work hard and get things done. In a way I feel like I’m admitting weakness by not succeeding in all I do. This isn’t to say there aren’t things I could let go of, but I’m taking the harder challenge (for me), by saying I mentally will check myself when I go down the road of feeling like I should do it all. Here are just a few of the core things I will & won’t do.
Things I will do:
-strive to grow in my relationship with my creator and live my faith in a real and transparent way to those around me.
-be a wife who challenges, supports, loves, and learns from my husband.
-raise my children in a loving home, teach them right from wrong, and be a little bit fun while I’m at it.
Things I won’t do:
– keep a perfect home. I’ll choose to be okay on the days the dishes don’t get done.
– spend more than half an hour getting ready. Frankly, there are way better things to do with my time. If the hairdo isn’t easy or the clothes aren’t machine washable- count me out.
-make things from scratch. I have lofty ideas of making mouth watering meals from scratch, baby foods, or going entirely organic. Not gonna happen. Not this year.
This post really hits home for me. I’m a work in progress.