I left the house Friday morning and drove the van to our hospital. Checked in for my OB appointment. The nurse recognized me and said “it feels like a few months ago when you had your last baby.” I agree. The OB department feels quite familiar.
Well.. I’m pregnant! I didn’t have a doubt after such awful morning sickness for the month of September, but there is something about hearing that strong/fast heartbeat that makes me cry.. every time. There is life inside me! My official due date is tax day- April 15th, 2012. Which means I’m on the doorstep of my second trimester and am emotionally at the point where I need a new trimester!
I’ve been having labor nightmares of late (actually nightmares in general). So I talked with my Dr about that. Lucia’s delivery and recovery afterwards were brutal. Of course its worth it, but to think of going through that again this year.. I’m scared. My Dr and I had a very honest conversation. We read through my last two labor reports and my Dr feels it would be best to schedule a c- section this time. Why? Because my labors have been much the same: 11 days overdue, induced, aggressive labor (no time for drugs), babies get stuck and stressed, vac extraction, cutting/tearing. I’ll leave it there. While the thought of a c-section sounds easier in so many ways, I know its surgery and that scares me too. I’ve never had surgery. This baby is gonna come in April, its just a matter of how. Decision is up to me. Its a hard decision.. not sure I want to choose.