6:53 a.m today and everyone was in Dad & Mom’s bed.
We’re ending our first week as the five of us. It was wonderful to have family to meet Colette and help during our first days home from the hospital.. but there is also something I craved about just being “us” again. I was ready to be with the bigger kids and work towards finding our new rhythm.
Lucia has had the hardest time with the change so far. She doesn’t like the attention being divided or having to wait her turn. Often when I’m nursing Colette I’ll tell her “in just a minute..” The past couple days she’ll respond by saying “no, don’t say ‘just a minute’ mom”. Sometimes that is preceded by having a toy thrown at me or being hit.
I too am finding I daily need to practice patience in a way I haven’t before (and lack of sleep doesn’t help the cause). I’m two weeks post c-section and improving. It feels like a slow improvement day to day. Still- when I think back to how my body felt the first days.. it feels like a huge improvement. I need to be patient.
I’m feeling so needed and aware of how I need to grow.
This is the hardest job I’ve ever done and completely worth it.