Ryan is working extra long hours this weekend which means the three bakery donuts on top of our fridge might be consumed by ME. Alone.
I went to my first MOPS meeting with the girls yesterday. If I had known a couple years ago what MOPS was… I probably would’ve told you I’d never join. Why? Because its a group of all moms. I like moms… there is just something about a large group of them in one space. It’s unpredictable. We’re all living on far to little sleep, socialize primarily with our little ones, and wish we had hobbies. Top that with a couple “wild cards” who are entirely emotional. Do you follow me? Well anyways.. I went. I stepped out of my normal comfort zone and it feels good to be (slightly) outside the box.
Isn’t being a mom crazy? The feeling that you’re about to go nuts if you don’t get time alone. Then you’re finally alone but think of your little ones at home. Your body is always needed for feeding, holding, wiping, chasing. You’d like to be left alone. But then your little one is hurt or sick and you don’t want to let them go. The constant being talked to. Oh… the questions!! But when the day is over and you’re tucking them in and they whisper: ” I love you, mama”. Sweet words. You feel strong enough for another day.
I’ve been a stay at home mom for eight months now and early on gave myself a timeframe of how long it would be until I’m working again (you know.. the real job).
I never would have said I’m the best suited for being a stay at home mom. I still wouldn’t. But the experience definitely is changing me.
We’ve been going through a series at church the past couple months on parenting. The content has been so good but makes you leave feeling a bit uncomfortable (or maybe just me). This is a serious job! One of the questions our Pastor asked has stuck with me: “what is my priority as a parent?” Because even if I haven’t sat down and told my kids, they know. More is caught than taught.
So.. what is your priority?